I Haven't Quit Yet...

It has been six weeks since I started my training program.  I am proud of myself because this is the longest stretch of time that I have ever exercised.  I should be happy about that right? WRONG!!  I got on the scale today, my first mistake, and I noticed that I have now gained almost seven pounds since I started.  What the f is going on?  I admit that I have been eating a bit more than I used to but only after my runs.  Plus I have been eating healthy foods.  Granted not every single time but for the most part.  Anyway, my first instinct was to quit this whole crappy thing and go back to my normal way of living.  No exercise and skipping meals.  True that may keep me at a lower weight but I can't ignore the fact that it is not a healthy way to live.  So I am going to keep going with my training.  I finished my first twenty minute run the other day.  That was the longest I've ever run continuously.  I, yet again, surprised myself.  My new question is am I ever going to stop obsessing over whether or not I will make it as I start to run for longer periods of time??  I find myself thinking: how much longer, how much further, am I going to make it, and my personal favorite I HATE RUNNING!!  I don't really hate running.  But I do hate constantly thinking negative things while running.  I breeze through the first five minutes now and then it starts.  I am hoping that as I get better and better I will no longer worry about if I will be able to finish.  That makes sense to me.  My 5K is next Friday.  I am running with David or more specifically, I am going to the race and leaving with David.  I get the feeling that he wants to try and run as see how fast he can finish it.  I guess I don't really need a running partner.  I will probably do better anyway without him with me knowing that he just wants to take off.  It is my accomplishment so I should go my own way.  I have my first twenty-five minute run tomorrow.  I am going to get up and get it over with.  Sunday David suggested we go out early and it was nice.  I am still trying to figure out what time is best for me.  My sister and I are planning on running a half marathon in November.  I am only just realizing just how really crazy I am.  She asked me if I had signed up and payed yet and I told her no.  I would like to see how my 5k goes and then decide if I want to spend $85 for November's race.  I am however looking forward to buying a new running outfit.  Once I finish next Friday night I am going straight over to the running store and buying one of those cute skirt type outfits.  As long as I look good...anything is possible...right??