Got Off Track

I wish time didn't go by so fast.  I can't believe that the 5k was so long ago already.  I had a blast though and I am looking forward to doing it again.  I do have to admit that it has been a rough 2 weeks.  Let's start with the 5k.  It was a beautiful evening in St. Pete.  We got there about an hour early and checked in.  To my utter disappointment they ran out of small t-shirts by the time we had gotten there.  It annoys me to no end to sign up early for a race and have the organizers do a shitty job.  I ended up with a large shirt which I will never wear.  There were a good amount of people there and it was a good vibe going.  I started out strong but my mind would soon take over and put in a lot of doubt.  Almost immediately I started thinking - I can't do this, it's too hot, I'm too tired, this was a mistake, and so on.  It just takes over.  I made it a little past 2 miles without stopping to walk and I wasn't too concerned with other people which was a good thing.  I had to take a breath for just a bit due to dizziness but quickly recovered to start up a jog again.  I walked again a couple of times but only for a short time and really tried to focus on jogging over the finish line.  David was a great help keeping me wanting to get jogging as fast as possible.  It felt really good to finish.  My end time was 39 minutes.  I didn't beat my time back in 2006 in Winter Park but I walked way more of that one so I am happy with it.  I also decided that I would try to do races in the morning only.  Not trying to make excuses but maybe the say was too long or maybe I didn't prepare correctly. Who knows.  After the race David and I went out to Longhorn to eat. It was really nice although way past my bedtime.  I almost fell asleep at the dinner table.  After that night though my training took a shit.  I needed to take some time to recuperate.  My first mistake was going out on Saturday night.  It was fun but took way too much out of me and my few days off turned into 5 days. On Thursday I finally made it back out but quickly made excuses to myself to go in early.  It is so easy to fall prey to my own mind.  I don't find myself doing it very often in any other capacity but exercise brings out the worst in me.  Not being able to have a good run on Thursday I again got uninspired and pissy about running.  Sunday was another horrible day that left me complaining and making yet more excuses of why I hate running. Saturday the 10th David and I did the Urban Dare race and had a blast.  It was so much fun doing something very different.  I would have like to be able to run a bit more but I won't let that hinder my good feelings about the race itself.  I can't wait to do another one.  After recuperating I decided that I made a mistake doing the 5k too early and not following my Couch to 5K plan like I wanted to. So yesterday I got back on track.  I had to go back to week 6 because of all the time I took off but it felt good to accomplish my goal.  I feel like I am back.  There are plenty of 5k races that will be there when I really finish.  I will not rush.  I will go through and do every week like I should have to begin with.  I feel that if I have a set goal for the day it is much easier to accomplish.  I really do want to be a runner.  There I said it.  I will succeed at this if it kills me.