Finally...

I started David's program to run a 15k in 10 weeks on June 1st.  I have been doing really good with it.  In fact I finally ran for three miles without walking.  It felt really good! I think I could have done it the whole time.  I think I still let my mind control too much.  I still tell myself that I can't go anymore and then I just stop short of my goal.  It happened in the two 5k's I've done this year.  But last Saturday I was able to run the distance that has been eluding me for too long.  I am hoping that I can push through mile #4 a little faster.  I wish it would just kick in already and come more naturally.  I feel like I am having to fight for every single mile I go.  I don't mind fighting for something it just seems like I take so long that I start to get discouraged.  I am the type of person who thrives on completing tasks.  I like to make lists and cross things off as I accomplish them.  It motivates me to keep going.  I have recently figured this out at my ripe old age of 34.  Anyway, I need to try and stop being so negative and start believing that I CAN do it.  I have come so far already.  There is no reason that I shouldn't be able to succeed at running so why do I constantly feel that I won't be able to reach a running goal?  Regardless of all that I just wrote - I ran 3 miles!  I signed up for another 5k on Saturday.  I am planning on running the full length of 3.2 miles.  I, of course, will let you all know how that works out.
I was able to actually get through the past 2 weeks with no WTF moments.  Partly because I haven't really been out.  The idea of venturing out of my safety zone is less and less desirable to me.  Why do I need to leave anyway?  I have everything I need with little to no annoyances.  I did however go out to my Meetup group for atheists and found, yet again, how nice it is to talk with other people about problems that arise.  I filled them all in on the coach and was able to let a lot of it go through laughter.  It is so very calming to know that there are other people out there who think like me.  I just wish I could somehow surround myself with them to help fight off the undesirables.  But then I think that the good ones wouldn't look so good if I didn't have the bad ones to compare them too.  So life is good.  My two girls are leaving for 2 weeks tomorrow and David just bought a new book called Primal Blueprint.  I may be changing the whole way I eat and workout while they are away.  Here's to trying to get through the day with no real purpose (my girls) for 12 days!